"Kuyamangalisa ukuba indlela yakho yokujonga ngayo ubomi iguquka xa uyeka ukutshaya ..."
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Ndiyakuvuyela ngempumelelo yakho ngokuyeka u-cigarettes Gayela, kwaye mbulela ngokuxelela ibali lakho.
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Ndiyamangaliswa! Ndothuka kum! Ndamangaliswa ndize kule ndawo. Andiyi kukholwa ukuba ndiyi-WINNER!
Unyaka odlulileyo ungobubi kakhulu kum, kodwa ndayeka ukutshaya . Emva koko umnyaka wam waba neyingozi ngakumbi kwaye ndayeka ukuyeka. Emva koko impilo yam yaphosa, kodwa ke ndahlala ndiqinile ngenkqubo yam yokuyeka. Ndandiziva ngathi ndilapha ecaleni kwentaba, kwaye xa ndasenyuka ngasentla, ndiza kubuya kwakhona. Ndiya kuvuka ndabuyela phezulu kwintaba, izimisele ukuyenza phezulu.
Ewe, ndayenza phezulu kwaye ndihamba ngaphaya kwelinye icala, ndihleka kwaye ndamamatheka ngenxa yokuba ayikho i-bumpy ngaphesheya kwentaba. I-slide ibe yindlela yokuphila engcono, impilo engcono kwaye ndivuya ngakumbi .
Andikwazi ngisho ukuchaza lwam uvuyo. Kunzima ukuyifaka kumazwi, kodwa andiyiyo njenge-grouchy okanye njengento ephosakeleyo njengoko ndandingayiyeka ukutshaya okanye nangona ukukhishwa kwe-nicotine kunye neenyanga zokuqala zokuyeka. Ndiyindoda elula kakhulu namhlanje.
Ngokomzekelo, ndafika kwinqwelo ukuya ekhaya. Ndahlala esihlalweni sam kodwa sasingaqhubeki kodwa ngenxa yokuba ndinezihlalo zokuhlala kwaye ndazi ukuba kufuneka ndivuke amaxesha amabini. Ewe, ndagqiba ukuvuka malunga nama-6 ukuya kuma-8 amaxesha kuba abantu bathabatha izihlalo ezingafanelekanga. Omnye umfazi wayeneenja kwaye wayenzima ukufumana into ehlwempu esuka phantsi kwesihlalo xa umntu omele ukuba ahlale apho wangena.
Ndamxelela ukuba amthathe ixesha kwaye angagqithisi xa ezama ukukhupha inja phantsi kwesihlalo; ukuba yonke into yayilungile. Ibhinqa elihleli ngaphaya kwam libuke emva kwandula lathi ndilinalo sengqondo ehle - abaninzi abantu babeya kubacaphukisa kakhulu ngoku. Kwiinyanga ezilishumi elinesibini edlulileyo ndibe ndixhala kwaye ndikhukhumele, ndibethe unyawo lwam, kunye ne-tisk-tisking kuyo yonke intambo yeziganeko, kodwa ayikho. Ubomi bumnandi.
Ndiyitshintshe indlela yokuphila yam kwiinyanga ezili-11 ezedlulileyo. Ukuyeka ukutshaya, ukusebenza, ukulahlekelwa ubunzima, kwaye ngoku uhamba ngendlela entsha ukuya kwimifuno. Kungathatha ixesha elithile ukuba ndibuyele ngqo kuloo nto, kodwa ndihambe ngendalo xa ndiyakwazi kwaye ngokuqinisekileyo yonke imvelo ekutya kwam. Ndicinga ukuba ndibukeka ngcono, kwaye ndiqinisekile ukuba u-HEck uziva ngcono kakhulu kule mihla. Ndiyakwazi ukuhamba ngeenqwelo zeenqwelo-moya ezi-3 kwaye ndingakhangeli.
Kuyamangalisa ukuba indlela yakho yokujonga ngayo ubomi iguquka xa uyeka ukutshaya. Ukuzithemba kwakho kuya kuba ngcono kakhulu kwaye ufuna ukuthatha loo mvakalelo kwaye wenze ezinye izinto eziphilileyo. Emva kokuba uphuma kumkhwa omnye mbi, kubonakala sengathi ufuna ukuqhubeka nokuphuka neminye imikhwa emibi. Ubuncinane usebenze ngale ndlela kum.
Konke nonke oqala ngokuyeka ukutshaya, vele uhlale apho.
Oku kuyingozi kakhulu. Umsebenzi onzima kancinane - andiyi kuxoka kuwe. Uza kukhwaza, uphawule, ukhale, uphinde uthukuthele. Uya kuzama ukulinganisa ukuba kutheni ufuna ukutshaya kwaye unokuba negrarethi nje . Uya kudinwa kwaye utyhafile kancinane. Kodwa musa ukulahlekelwa ngumfanekiso omkhulu. Uyeke ukutshaya! Yona nto yintloko. Zonke eziphazamisayo ziya kuhamba ngexesha. Iba ngcono kakhulu.
Ewe, ndinomzuzu ombi rhoqo rhoqo, kodwa udlula ngoku ngoku. Ndiyimfundo endiyidingayo kwimpumelelo eqhubekayo kunye neWIN. Ndiyazi ukuba loo mvakalelo iya kudlula. Ndiyazi malunga neziphumo, izifiso kunye nokukhuthaza, kwaye ndiyazi ukuba ndibajikeleze .
Zi fundise. Unetyala kuwe, ukuyeka kwakho kunye nabathandekayo bakho. Funda, funda, ufunde ngokubanzi njengoko unako kulo mkhwa owonakalisayo kwaye ucinga ngokubanzi .
Kubo bonke abaye bahamba phambi kwam, abahlobo bam abatsha-bafumanayo, abacebisi bam, ndiyabulela ukusuka kwintliziyo yam. Uncedise ngezinye zezihlandlo ezimbi kakhulu ebomini bam. Ndikweleta ukuyeka kwam yonke into, kuba ngaphandle kwakho andingayi kuhamba apha. Ndinithanda nonke!
Ndabhala inkondlo enikezelwe kwiforum yoxhaso lwam "intsapho" nje kwinyanga yam 11:
Intsha entsha yokuziqhayisa
Ilanga liphuma
Njengoko usuku lwam luqala.
Ukubuyiselwa kwakhona, ndiyadala
Ngeemvakalelo
Ubomi bokuqonda.
Uyolo kunye nomxholo
Ndiyakwazi ukukhala,
Ulungele ukuhleka.
Imimoya ephakamileyo nekratshi,
Ndiyithatha imihla ngemihla
njengoko kusungulwe ngaphambili.
Uzalisekile ubomi
Ndibe!
Ukuvusa ukuzalwa kwakhona kwengcamango
Unomdla kwaye unomdla,
Bavuswa ngokuthanda kwabo
Ndifumene amandla amaphakathi angaphakathi.
Ngaphaya kwamaphupha
Kodwa ngo kwenene,
Ndiya kuhamba ngonaphakade
Ngomdla omtsha!
© Gail C. Berreitter
NgoSeptemba 15, 2005
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