Izikhumbuzo ezincinci zenza umahluko omkhulu xa uziva uhla
Njengoko ixesha lihamba, kunokuba lula ukulahlekelwa yimbangela yezizathu zokuba ubeka i sigarethi lokugqibela kwaye wenza isigqibo sokuyeka ukutshaya. Emva kweenyanga ezimbini, unakho ukulibala ubuninzi bokuthi utshaya ukutshaya, njani ukukwenza ukukhwehlela, kunye nokuphefumula okufuneka ujongane nayo. Kwakhona kulula ukuqala ukuzisola kuwe okanye ucinge ngendlela enokudakalisa ngayo ngaphandle kwegwayi.
Kuya kwenzeka kubantu abaninzi, ingakumbi emva kweenyanga ezimbalwa zokuqala kuba siqala ukuhlaziya iintsuku ezindala zokutshaya. Oku kubizwa ngokuthi i- junkie icingayo kwaye kuyingozi yokuba abaninzi ababhemayo baya kubhekana xa befumana ukutshabalala kwe-nicotine . Ngaphandle kokuguqulwa kwesimo sengqondo, ukucinga ngejunkie kunokukhokelela lula ukutshaya ukutshaya.
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Namhlanje ubala ezimbini iintsuku ekubeni ndiyekile ukutshaya. Izolo ndandicinga malunga noko ndiza kubeka kwimizuzu yam emibini ehamba phambili kwi-forum yokubhema.
Kwakungayi kuba nokuthunyelwa kwethemba.
Hayi, into endiyilungiselele yayiyinxalenye enkulu yenceba. Ukuthoba ngokupheleleyo "UThixo, ndiziva ndixakekile. Andizange ndibheke iinyanga ezimbini kwaye ndivakalelwa nje . diatribe. Emva koko ndiza kuhlala ndize ndilindele zonke iimpendulo ezithuthuzelayo, eziqinisekisa ukuba ndiyazi ukuba amalungu e-forum aya kuthumela indlela yam.
U-Kinda uyabuhlungu, kodwa inyaniso.
Emva koko kwenzeka ebusuku.
Isimo-Ukudibanisa Ukutshintsha
Enye yezinto endiziphindileyo ukususela ekuyekeni kuya kwiiklasi ze-yoga. Ndihamba ubusuku obune ukuya kobusuku ngeveki. Ngobusuku bokugqibela kwakuhle kakhulu; Ndiyicinga ukuba abantu abaninzi bafumana iseshoni ngaphambi kokuba baxhaphaze imizimba yabo ngo-Eva.
Kwakungeyona iseshoni enhle kakhulu kum. Ingqondo yam yajikeleza. Ndandicinga ngeqela esasiya kulobo busuku, ndibuza ukuba ubani oya kuba negwayi, ukuba ngaba yayiza kuba ndiza kuhamba , njl njl.
Ekupheleni kweklasini, ndaqaphela umfazi osemncinci (mhlawumbi ngeentsuku ezingama-30) endingazange ndibone ngaphambili. Wayethetha nomcebisi kwaye ndakuva ukuba wayevela ngaphandle kwedolophu kwaye wayetyelela iintsapho iintsuku ezimbalwa. Sasihamba kunye kunye senza intetho encinci.
Ndambuza ukuba wafumanisa njani i-studio yoga. Uthe akazange enze i-yoga ngexesha elithile, ngoko-ke wayebukeka e-intanethi waza wafumana indawo. Wandibuza ukuba ndide ndiqhuba ixesha elingakanani. Ndamxelela ukuba ndaqala kwakhona xa ndiyeka ukutshaya . Emva koko ndathi ndiyenzile malunga neenyanga ezimbini, kwaye kwakunzima kakhulu (kukho ihlwempu inxenye, kwakhona).
Wandijonga waza wathi, "Ewe, ndivile kubahlobo abaye bayeka ukuba banako ukunyaniseka. Wandula ke wathi, "Uyazi, oku kuwububele bendikhumbulayo kum."
"Ewe?" Ndathi, "Yisiphi isiganeko?" Wayemisa kwaye wajonga ngqo emehlweni am okwesibini. "Kwakuyiminyaka engama-5 edluleyo ukuba ndibe nokutshintshwa kwemiphunga emibili."
Kwakunjengomntu ondibetha ngasemva kunye nomfundi kunye nomoya wonke uphume emaphaphini ami. Ngaba ngokwenene wayithi "ukutshintshwa kwemiphunga emibini"? Andizange ndikwazi ukufumana intloko yam malunga nayo. Ufunda ngezinto ezinjalo, kodwa ukudibana nomntu oye wahamba nayo?
Kwakubonakala kungenakwenzeka.
"Enyanisweni," ndathi, "ukufakelwa kwamaphaphu kabini?" Wayemomotheka. "Ewe. Ndine-cystic fibrosis, kwaye ngaphandle kokutshintshwa, ndiza kufa."
Ndandiqhaqhazela ukuzama ukucinga ngento enengqiqo ukuthetha. Wayenomonde gqitha, ndicinga ukuba wayekade ejongene nale meko ngaphambili. Emva kwemizuzu embalwa, ndasikhuthazela ukuba ndithi "ikusasa libukeka njani?" Wathi emva kweminyaka emihlanu, umyinge wukuthi uza kuba nekhefu elingama-25 lokwenza omnye unyaka. "Kodwa oko kungumndilili. Ndinezinto ezincinane zokuchaswa, kwaye ndiziva ndikhululekile."
Sathetha enye imizuzu engama-20 okanye njalo. Ugijimela umsebenzi wokuhlangula wezilwanyana eBrooklyn. Ungumqondisi wenkampani yokudansa engekho inzuzo. Unomsebenzi wesikhathi esigcwele. Unomnye "obalulekileyo." Uphila ubomi bakhe.
Andikho umntu onqulo. Ndiyathanda ukucinga ukuba ndinomlinganiselo othile wokomoya, kodwa akukho nkolo inqulunqwa ukuba ndiza kuba yinxalenye ye. Nangona kunjalo, xa uthe, "Ndokusikelela, u-Epreli, uThixo akusikelele, andinakukuxelela ukuba kuthethwa ntoni kum ukuba ndidibane nawe." Kwaye ndamnika ixesha elide.
Senza ukhetho
Njengoko ndathi, andinguye umntu onokholo, kodwa yonke imini ndicinga ngaye. Luhlobo olunjengale movie,
"Ubomi obumnandi." Njengokuba ingelosi yehlile yandibeka emagxeni.
Oku kuye kwathatha ixesha ukuchaza, kodwa nantsi into endifuna ukuyidlulisela kubo bonke abafundayo oku: phantse ngaphandle kokunye, thina esishiyekileyo senza njengento yokukhetha . Kuyinto enzima, ibuhlungu ngamanye amaxesha, kodwa sinokuzikhethela ukuqhubeka senza umonakalo kuthi okanye senze konke esinokukubetha le miphumo ebuhlungu kwi-nicotine.
Aprili akanalo ukhetho. Uyakwazi kuphela ukujongana nesandla esipheleleyo esichengile kuye.
Ndilapho, ndizibuhlungu ngenxa yokuba ndibuhlungu ngokuyeka ukutshaya, kunye nomntu oye wajamelana naye, kwaye ubhekane naye, ukufa kwakhe imihla ngemihla kwaza kwangandipha ngobuso bakhe. Yaye yenza ngesibindi nakwiklasi.
~ Brad
ILizwi
Ngokuqhelekileyo, inkululeko yenyani evela kwinto enjengomlutha yimeko yengqondo. Nika ingqalelo kwiingcamango ezilungileyo ukuba ubomi buthumela indlela yakho, kwaye usebenze ukutshintsha oko kukutshaya kuthetha kuwe. Zinike ixesha lokuphulukisa imikhwa oye wayilungisa malunga nokulutha kwe-nicotine kwaye unokufumana inkululeko ehlala njalo njengokuba kunabani na umntu.